I'm sorry.

I had to do it.

I just cant stand it

and i know you're reading this.

I've said it so many times i'm even sick of it before you're annoyed about it.I did my part.I tried my best but i just dont see it coming from you.I know it aint the right time but i just cant stand it anymore.Apology is not something i want.I just need an explanation.I may seem fine but deep down inside i'm not.You dont see it because i was and still am faking a smile the whole time thinking everything will be fine as time passes by.Guess not.I was wrong.If i dont do it now,then when? when will you actually notice how i feel? when will you actually care? A thousand things you did and million reasons you gave.Did i ever questioned you about it? i thought of it a thousand times and i hesitated it hopping something nice will appear and change everything.You only talk to me when you feel like it.You will only remember that i exist when someone reminds you about it.Where were you when i needed you? Where were you when i was all alone? You wont know how it feels like unless it happens to you.This will probably the best solution before things get worst.When you grabbed me today and told me to cheer up,i closed my eyes,took a deep breath while i gather all my courgare and said it.There's nothing else i can say about it now.Its too late.I'm tired.

Goodbye.